On Inspirational People

Right now, nothing quite piques my interest as much as inspiration. Maybe this is because it’s at a point in my life that I’m feeling the need to be inspired, and likely that means I need to get even better at trusting myself to grow in the directions I want to.

That said, I think that I’ve always been enamored by people who inspire me to do better, be better, or live better. Whether it be my roommate and his unwavering drive at the gym, my friend and his demonic abilities to grind goals out for hours, or various friends and partners when it comes to writing, music, intellect, hosting gatherings, kindness, or humor, the people who I surround myself with are the kind of people I truly feel I can learn and grow from.

I think this is a core value of mine, but even that I wrestle with. As inspirational as I want to be and as inspirational as the people in my life are, I sometimes question how much this relates to improvement and if that should be put on a pedestal.

There are many ‘improover’ memes, but in short while it’s inspirational to be honing your craft or growing in many ways, I sometimes wonder how much of that comes from genuine desire to grow and how that can oppose lack of self-worth or constantly thinking you’re ‘unworthy’.

Whether it be of friendship, love, professional consideration, one thing that I’ve discussed a lot in therapy is this idea that everyone is ‘whole’ - everyone is ‘worthy’. I often struggle with this concept, sometimes of myself, and sometimes in judgement of others.